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Name: The Mel
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Chicago
Birthday: 11/24/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: The Almighty Lord and His awe-some presence, Australia and all that entails, the inner-city and its beautiful people, basketball, learning (science...i'm a nerd), listening, and laughing, being ridiculous, conversing, collaging, reading the Word, acting ghetto, music of all kinds (except devil music, aka country haha), and just plain ole chillin' out, ya ming.
Expertise: Smellin'...smellin' real good, mumbling and laughing at the same time, gettin' my groove on in front of the mirror, singin' with all my windpipers, really poorly, in my car, making people laugh (is it my face...haha), abreving my words (ex. all give you my numb) or making up words (see windpipers, yeah), talking in instant messenger lingo...g2g, brb, lol!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message me
Yahoo:  cara145@yahoo.com
Member Since:
4/25/2004
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| wow, so i've pretty much neglected xanga for a year and a half, mostly because i have a facebook and a myspace...i've become one of those 3 prong people. one of these accounts need to die, but each offer so much. alas, there is more to life then this dilemma...its not really a dilemma, i just want to downsize. all that to say i have nothing really to say (but i really do, i just don't know how to put it). maybe in another year and a half i'll figure it out. | | |
| Have I been kind to Jesus Christ? How much kindness have I been showing Him in my daily life and walk? How has His kindness been displayed through me? Have I been kind to His reputation in my life?
"Am I so in love with Him that I take no account of where I go? or am I watching for the respect due to me; weighing how much service I ought to give?" Oswald Chambers (he's kicking my butt right now)
Tough questions to face. I feel like I've been kicked in the head with them because I don't know if I have been showing/proving my devotion to Jesus Christ? Have I ever really proven my devotion to Jesus Himself through reckless abandon for Him and sharing Him and what He's done? I feel really cheap and jaded because I know I don't stand for Him like I should and I ignore His leadings sometimes, especially the ones that don't make sense to me. Why should His leadings make sense though; nothing Jesus did made any sense to those around Him...even the slightest of things, such as spit, He used for miracles. He was such a subtle man that had oneness with the Father, and He wants us to have that oneness in every aspect of our lives, no matter how trivial.
God, teach me what it means to go all out for you and only you, to spend myself on you alone, not on my job, my relationships, or even my service, especially not my service. | | |
| So Cali, in less then a week...what is the Lord thinking...He always is doing something, and I like it!!!! I will have to post more, but as of now I need to tend to my whiny niece...she's more important, sorry guys. | | |
| "Where have all the xanga'ers gone..." to fricken facebook. don't get me wrong, the face is good, but only to a point...it ain't all that like everyone says. i'm for the xanga...where sean cote gives us deep though, where ian gives us wacky challenges between the usual suspects, where i can know whats going on with my roommates jen and steph, where rachel complains about brittany spears, where i can find many things from people i don't even know. come on people, come back home, come to your alma mater, she's waiting. | | |
| "you have got to be kidding me!" this phrase has come to my mind and out of my lips more than anything this past week. its all just too much and all i can do is shake my head and move on. Lord help me. | | |
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